March 20, 2011
Life changes so fast.
Two weeks ago today, I flew to Texas to visit my mother who had just had what the emergency room doctor said was probably a stroke. Fortunately, the stroke (or, as her neurologist finally diagnosed, the TIA) was not major, and there wasn't much damage, if any, to Mom's cognitive function.
But.
All of her doctors concurred that she can no longer live alone, and when Mom was presented with the choice between assisted living and moving to Michigan to live with me and Daniel, she chose us.
And so our lives, all our lives, changed drastically in less than two weeks.
March 01, 2011
I'm taking a class at Big Picture Classes called "One Little Word," taught by Ali Edwards. Inspired by her, I have chosen a word for the year, rather than making resolutions, for the past four years. This year, I chose the word solace because 2010 was the most difficult, consistently turbulent year in my memory, and I crave respite. I crave a place, a feeling, a state of being that isn't...
February 05, 2011
Tonight...my heart is heavy. With worry and stress and the constant drumbeat of not knowing what to do. With people I love so very, very much being too far away. With my own tendency to blame myself, to feel like I am inferior, lacking, worthless because I can't, no matter what I do, fix it. With the lingering sting of being dropped out of someone's life for no good reason, someone to whom I've...
January 28, 2011
When I was in my 20's (and we're not going to talk about how long ago THAT was), I read a book by M. Scott Peck in which he mentioned that most problems or issues we face as human beings are "over-determined," meaning that there is more than one cause. When I read that, I started to see the truth of it in my life. Previously, I'd been a person who was bound by black-or-white thinking. Either...