Been awhile. Summer is when I tend to hibernate a bit, my mental and biological rhythms slowing down. Every year it's the same, I feel laziness set in, a lack of motivation, a slump, and I always wonder what's wrong with me, why my energy is so low. Then, also every year, I remember that this is how I always get during the warmer months, particularly toward the end of July and August when the thermometer likes to hang out in the 80's and 90's range.
Fortunately, here in Michigan, those days don't last long. We've had a mild Summer, and already the trees are starting their dance into Autumn.
I welcome it.
I've been in a writing slump, especially. It scares me, feeling as if I can't put two words together, much less craft coherent sentences. More than usual, I've been down on myself, and I've been feeling even more like there's good reason. Mediocrity haunts me. Something happened a few weeks ago to trigger this new round of self-deprecation, but it isn't new to me. The days when I feel like I have talent and purpose and worth are not as many as the days when I feel like...well, like I totally suck.
Life being full of spirals and circles, I know the feelings will pass.
In one arena, I feel like I'm doing good work, and that's scrapbooking. My focus lately has been on finishing the pages for 2007. Progress is good, and I'm liking the end results. Newly completed pages that appeal to my own eye make me smile.
I've also been spending a good bit of time on the atheism boards on Beliefnet.com. Interesting stuff there, generating lots of ideas to share on my blog.
Perhaps...as the Wheel turns, along with the leaves, and the air gets deliciously cooler, my slump will start to recede. I already feel it beginning.
Have I mentioned that I welcome it?
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