No layout to post today. Oh, yeah, I did create (if it can be called "creating") a page for the Layout-A-Day challenge, but I'm not posting it here because I am completely disgusted with how it turned out. I'm not sure what happened. I had an idea, I kept it simple, and I just ran into a wall. No matter what I tried, no matter what elements I put on that page, no matter what I did, it just sucked.
Finally, I just had to accept it. I created a bad page. I let it go. I posted the "hot mess" in the gallery, describing it as "ugh, ugh, ugh." That's how I feel, not just about the page, but about the fact that my creativity just ran out, and I don't know why.
Maybe it was the pressure. I tend to get writer's block on those few occasions when I have a deadline of some sort. Or maybe I was too distracted by a continuing family issue that makes me want to choke the shit out of a certain family member who is a perpetual drain on my energy, sanity, and good will.
Not to mention my fraying patience.
And tonight I found out that I lost a small contest I entered, and it's not really that big a deal, but on top of that crappy layout...I feel a bit--okay, a lot--deflated.
Maybe tomorrow, this will all seem as insignificant as it really is.
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